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Category: Life I love you mom and i know you are in heaven watching me. It was your time to go your not in pian we don't have to worry about anything you too care of me well. you would not of left me in this cruel and dark world if you didn't know that God had people to take c are od me. like Jon and Wanda and ther rest of family and friends. I really dont know what to say i feel numb but i feel peace. I have my momment. Your mom is not supposed to die when you r twenty two. Its unreal. Mom was always honets with me about her health and had been telling me for years now she was going to die. It didn't make it easier it help the shock though. I knowe it would happen one day.I knew mom woldn't live to be there when i was old. JI jsut ddin't think it would happen this soon. I talked to her on the phone an hour before she died and we said i love you one last time. It the findal hug and kiss. Hugging and kissing a lifeless body in a hopital is not the same as a liveing person. Its hard to fathem that she was alive sunday dead the next. Its like this neverending nightmare. I just want to run as far and as fast as i can into the next centery. For those of you who don't know. My mome was a very awsome person she was tough and strong. My hearo. We had are moments but I was her baby girl. Mom passed sunday night while doing laundry. She gathered up a pile of clothes and calasped in her bedroom. She died at my ouse I wasn't there. I kinda beat myself up over this but she was dead when she fell i could 't help her. Her body fluieds where already realeased. For those of you show don't know thats the last things that happens before you die. I couldn 't of helped mom has told me now in my heart she didn not want me to see that for that to be my last memeory of her. She had a massive heart attack they took her too the hpspital to give me hope the otheres already knew which is ok. I knew that god would take care of her. I knesw she wasn't there she was and still is so beautiful. And will be cheeerished and reembered forever and ever. The funerail is at kimes. The viewing is tommorow from 2 to 8. and the funerail is at 2. |
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| Allot has happened this summer I have lost two cats. Quit one job to find out the other didn't need me and had a summer math class that rattled my brians. My vacation with Jon was by fair the best thing that has happened to me all summer.... maybe all year. My vacation in outer banks was quite amazing. From the first day everything was perfect. Evertything Jon and I did was so romantic. The trip down was so tiring we got there at about 9 at night and then went for a stroll on the beach. The next day it rian so we went shopping with jons't mom. The next day it was gorgious outside so we played in the sand for hours and got a little bit burned. On tuesday we went to the North Corrilina Aquarium and dug for shark teeth and looked at sharkes. w/e actually found a few shark teeth they are pretty little and as you can imagine very sharp. Then we went to the elixabethian gardens. They were so pretty. Then wensday it rianed so while the others where out shopping we had fun swimming in the rian and ejoying the hottube. Thursday we went to Cape hatterrrias the worlds largest lighthouse and yes we climbed the steps to the top. The propossel He kept telling me something really romantic was going to happen friday. He got me up at about 5:00am and said get ready and we will walk to the beach and watch the sunrise. He packed a bag of snackes and my cameria and we headed to the beach. We had found a sucluded little ledge of sand by the ocean and sat down watching for the day to break. I was sitting on Jon's lap as the sun started to peak through the clouds. I said i want to take a picture of this as soon as i put my camera up to take it Jon siad why don't u take a picture with this and he opened a box with a ring and said will you marry me. Of course i said yes! |
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| Im so sick of my ex boss lying about me. Turns out she told a whole slew of lies to people who brought their children there and to my other co worker. My neighbor takes her kids there and told me all about it. My ex boss even went as far as to tell her i wasn't even fit to be around her children and that I hated her. Best of all my ex boss told my neighbor that she should never let me in her house agian because the last tiime i babysat for them i wanted to snoop in her bedroom and was mad that it was locked. This is so outragious anyone who knows me knows im not like that. Im so glad I got to talk to my nieghbor and clear some things up for her. This is crap and it makes me feel sick and very sad for my ex boss that she would stoop to this level. Everyone keeps telling me that in time she will get what she deserves. What comes around goes around. Meanwhile I'm sick and very saddened by this and will keep her in my prayers. |
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| I really don't like these things because you can never really say what you want or how you really feel. So whats the point of doing it. |
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| Its been a long time since I updated. I had tons of fun in Missouri it was such a blast. While I was out there my uncle took me and my cousin out west. We saw things like Mt Roushmore, Crazy horse, the badlands, Corn palace and much more. On June 16 Jon and I went to Niagra Falls. Jon absolutly loved it. We had so much fun togather. It was a first trip togather so that made it really special. On June 30 I threw a suprise birthday party for Jon. Well it was supposed to be a supprise. We planned on having the party after he got off work that night at 10pm. He supprised us and showed up at 7pm that night. Luckly it didn't take long t get decorations up and all that. In other news I'm taking a summer class out at the college. Family and the Child with Linda Novak. Its pretty fun. The biggest change is now I have a job. I work in the wvup childrens room as a substitute. I like it there alot. It might just be for the summer i will have to wait until fall to see if they still need me. Well thats all for now. |
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